Miracles happen everyday

I have asked one of my dearest friends to write a post. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. She truly is an admirable person who finds the beauty daily. 

“The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is in life to celebrate”- Dove chocolate wrapper

I have never been one of those people that has ever taken any part of my life for granted. I have always loved spending time with my family. I adore and cherish my children, my husband, my parents, my siblings, my nephews, aunt & uncles, cousins, my in-laws and my true friends.

Every morning I wake up and every evening I go to bed I am so thankful for every part of my life. I have been blessed with the love of a man that has been with me from near death & back and still looks at me like I am the most amazing person in the world. I have been blessed with my beautiful children that are everything and more than I could’ve ever imagined. Every time I look at my kids, I almost cry because I almost never made it to see them grow up, to hear them tell me about their day and to get their beautiful hugs and kisses. I am blessed with unconditional love and support from my amazing parents, my siblings, my nephews and my extended family!

Over the past almost 4 years I have had many struggles with myself. The hardest day of my life was when I was 25 years old and I was involved in a fatal car accident with my grandparents and my mom. That horrible day I lost 2 of my heroes and thought I would be losing a lot more. As I sat in the car trying to figure out what happened, I looked around at everyone in the car and I felt completely helpless. I made eye contact with my mom and said, “ I am sorry” I climbed out of the car not knowing if that was the last time I would ever see her. I laid on the side of the car wishing I could hold my kids and my husband. I thought I would never get to see my parents, my siblings, my nephews or anyone in my family that I love and hold dear. My guardian angel was one the first responders to our accident. She talked to me and made me promise her that she would have a new facebook friend when I got out of the hospital. Although, I could not see her because my vision had gone blurry, I knew she was and still is my guardian angel. Both my grandparents passed away from injuries sustained in this accident and I never got to say good bye, but I know without a doubt they know how I feel about them because I told them all the time!

I spent 2 weeks in the ICU and 1 week in a rehabilitation center. My first week there was spent in a horrifying chemical induced coma. I suffered a broken C2 (a.k.a. hangman’s fracture), a slip in my C3 & C4, broken ribs, punctured lungs, lacerated liver & kidney and a ruptured spleen. I ended up in a halo device for 3.5 months, which was a struggle all it’s own to go out in public or even face my kids. Although some people found humor in my halo, and believe me that hurt, I still smiled at their snarky jokes. I couldn’t pick up my kids and I could barely kiss them, it was so hard to figure out to function how I was used to functioning.

My husband and I drove from Texas to Utah and I cried our whole 14 hour drive home from the hospital because I didn’t know what my kids were going to think of my halo. I thought maybe they would be scared and not want to come near ne but when I got home, they ran and hugged me. Every time my husband looked at me, I felt embarrassed but he would always tell me how beautiful I was. My whole family made me feel like I was still myself even when I felt I wasn’t me anymore.

Even though I still have hard days, all my scars and pain remind me of how lucky and blessed I am to be where and who I am. If I am having a hard day I remind myself that I am alive. I almost didn’t live to see my 26^thbirthday and every year I am excited to get older and see all the amazing experiences my life has to offer. It took me many years to realize that I am still the same person and once I realized that, I became at peace with myself.

I hope that for anyone reading this, no matter what you have been through in life and I know there might be times you feel knocked down and like you can’t get up again, please remind yourself how lucky you are to be alive and how amazing you are! 

Life really is beautiful and so are you! 

To all my family and friends that have been there to support me and love me for me, Thank you! You can never imagine how much you helped me heal!

-Kassitty Knight