The past 18 months of my life have been an eye opening experience for me because of the trials I have faced. Relationships were made, others lost, but overall the greatest relationship I harvested was one with myself. It made me see how much worth I put into others' opinions of me and my life. I hid my happiness for fear of offending someone else quite often; instead of genuinely being happy for what I was accomplishing in my life. I had to become dependent on several people for every day living which didn't sit well with me AT ALL. I reflected on my life and started to wish certain things never happened to me. Finally, I got a wake up call and read a letter that told me to find gratitude in my trials. This being the last year in my 20's, I figured I needed to change some things in my life to obtain the happiness I wanted. You can't change the past. You learn from it and better yourself because of it. I was in a rut and needed to fix things fast. As woman, I kept replaying things over and over and over and over in my mind. What did I do wrong? Why is it like this? Why can't they accept me for who I am? Why can't I ever seem to do anything right? This my friends is unhealthy. I know this because I have a wonderful husband and certain friends who helped me realize this. I was listening to a record on repeat in my head, beating myself up, and not enjoying what was right in front of me.
This started my journey to accepting myself. I know that I may never truly accept EVERYTHING about myself, but I can love the things that make me ME. A few people I know started posting pictures of quotes some saying: What people think of you is none of your business, Everyone isn't going to love you and they don't have to, Act without expectation, If you knew how capable you are, you'd stop worrying and start amazing yourself.... etc. I then started reading more and focusing on how my behavior affected my little family. If this was causing so much turmoil within me; how would I feel if my daughters grew up feeling the same way? It's not healthy behavior, yet almost every woman I know feels some sort of failure within themselves. It's proven that certain behaviors are passed down from parents/family members/friends to children, but that doesn't mean we can't change those behaviors. That is why I am starting this blog. I will be posting quotes and inspirational thoughts that are helping me; hopefully they help you. We all struggle and will all continue to. Not one of us is ugly, only our behavior towards others can affect the beauty we exude. Starting today with my girls I am going to empower them, love them, teach them, and be the change I want to see.
Feel free to comment on something you love about yourself or that you are grateful for.
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